There is a difference...

As life goes on we learn many new things. Some we learn because we want to and others we learn from our mistakes. I have found that some of the best things I have learned are things I have learned and discovered about myself as a person. I thought I new myself pretty well, but I have noticed some attributes I have which I am just beginning to discover.

I however worry a little that some may view some of these as weakness instead of strength. But no matter what others may feel or think of my actions, it is what I feel which really matters.

There are situations in life where we can react with anger and hate, or with calmness and unerstanding and love. I know that there is a place for anger and hate but there is a fine line where we need to consider each situation as unique and not bunch all things together. For example, if someone I love is hurt by another person, intentionally that is, I feel anger and hate. If on the other hand someone wrongs me, I calmly think about the matter and weigh the pros and cons of my reactions.

I find that we can be of help to others, especially those we love, if we are calm and understaning and don't judge and demand answers. Odds are that under such situations much more is accomplished when discussed in a later occasion when all have had time to reflect and objectively think of what should and could be done to avoid such bad situations from occuring again. When we love someone we want to help them, not destroy them. Yes, I know that at times some need to be jerked back into re ality when they are on a road to self-destruction. But even then we can actually alienate that person if we aren't carefull and then our chances to help them and to demonstrate our love for them is hampered, if not totally destroyed.

I feel at peace with myself and I believe that is helping me to cope with the pain and anger I have. I am only human after all. I will continue to do my best to grow as a person and hopefully I can be of help to those I love and to good people in the world who may need my help and understanding.
May God Bless us all, and bring vengeance against those who are evil....