Thirty six years ago today...

I and my bride wher married on March 26th. in the year of 1974. It sounds like a long time ago, but I can recall that day very well. I remember how we looked and how happy we were. We finally had what we wanted...to belong to each other with a sense of security that no one could ever break us apart.

I have always treasured that day deep in my heart, and time will not erase that. My feelings have been tested with fire and I have managed to survive. And I have heard that when something can resist the test of fire, it will last forever.

One thing has always been a constant with me, and that is that I knew I was doing the right thing back then, by following my heart and the deep love I had for Janet and the child she was carrying in her womb. I will always feel the same. I loved her and I wanted her in my life forever, the fact that she was with our child just made it a higher blessing. It was proof of our love for each other. We were young and given very stupid advice by some as to how we should proceed with our current situation, you could just imagine how stupid people can be. Jan and I would have none of that! We knew what we wanted and together we fulfilled our dream. We got married and had our little girl.

Nothing, no one will ever change that. I will not go on as if this story has a happy ending, I will just say that I will always be grateful and remember the 26th. day of March with nothing but love...

Perfection..

In heavenly or spiritual terms complete or perfection is measured by the number 7.
In earthly terms the same is measured by the number 10.

Reaching 10 means you have accomplished perfection or a completion. Anything reached after that adds to your already complete state, it by no means diminishes the importance of number 11 or more.

Most people just go through life and never take account of certain things in life which have accured which equal this perfect number

I have considered this carefully and have counted such accomplishments as a blessing.

To clarify what I am speaking about, I will begin in 1974. In that year number 1 was given to me as I married the girl I loved. Within that year number 2, the birth of my first child, followed by the number 3 the birth of my second child. Then came number 4 in the birth of my third child and then number 5 my last child.

A few years went by before perfection was complete. My number 6 was my first granddaughter followed by number 7 my second granddaughter. Then number 8 my third granddaughter followed by number 9 my fourth granddaughter and my fifth granddaughter making it 10.

I treasure all of these blessings in my life as I will treasure any additions to such perfection. Many people live all their lives and never stop to count the blessings. If we all took the time to do so, I believe we would all be a little happier.

As the story goes on the 7th. day God said all was good and he rested, but the world did not stop working. So I also expect eagerly for more blessings to come my way. I don't know what form they will come in, but I will be here to enjoy them.

Got a virus...

Not me, my PC. Yeap, somehow a virus bug attached itself to my computer. It went crazy changing my settings, even my welcome screen and shutdown menu. It also added a user to my computer. I caught it and destroyed it. I checked every program possible and cleaned it up. I changed my antivirus and antispyware program, since apparently it did not do it's job. I was using Window's defender, now I went back to a trusted friend, Avast.

The bug even corrupted my network software. I had to uninstall my wireless adapter program and use a different mode to logon. It's all good now. I was thinking how frustrating it must be for an individual who does not know what to do, or for that matter, even to recognize the problem before it is either beyond repair, or someone has hacked into all of your personal info. I ramained calm and figured that if I could not clean it up, I would restore my system using a prior date. Yes, I know how to do it.

I was trying to figure out how I let this happen, since I don't open any program which I suspect is infected, and I don't use share-ware, or download songs. But then I remember allowing someone to use my PC the day before this all happened. I am not blaming anyone, I know for a fact that the persons I allow on my PC would not intentionally damage my system. It could happen to anyone at anytime. My antivirus program should have caught it. Well as I said, it's all good!

On a much lighter note. I had my bathtub refinished and it looks like new. I also purchased a new mattress set, it is cool. It sits so high on my bed, that I have been telling folks that I probably will have to get a running start to jump up there. Tonight will be the first night I sleep on them. Too bad I sleep alone. You know something real interesting, I heard that a link was found between loneliness and high blood pressure. Go figure...

Life is good...

You know life is what you make of it. If you want to be be sad and it has nothing to do with a health issue, whether physical or mental. you will be sad. If on the other hand you have the capacity to be happy and you exercise that option, you will be happy. I don't mean that crazy kind of happiness where you are acting goofy when it calls for you to be serious, no I am talking about a happiness where no one can rog you of it with a nasty attitude. When you have this type of joy in your life, you look younger, in control and you are a person others don't mind being around, unless of course if they are a sour puss.

If you however try your best to be happy, and you just can't find the way or emotion to do so, you may have a problem which you cannot handle on your own. There is nothing to be ashamed about. You are only human after all. Maybe talking to a good friend is all you need, perhaps a parent or and older child can help. If you rather not tell anyone close to you, or you have tried and it doesn't work, it may be a wise thing on your part to seek medical help. It is far worse to pretend nothing is wrong. You will not get better all by yourself, it has the possibility of gettin much worse. So, if you are reading this and you are feeling this way. You owe it to yourself to take action. :)

So what if I can't see how beautiful you are...

Helen Keller said, "The best and most beautiful things in the world cannot be seen or even touched. They must be felt within the heart." I could not agree with her more. The love that is felt in the heart is the most beautiful and genuine love one can have. That is where I feel my love is greater than most. I love based on the beauty of a persons soul. Yes, I can remember the beautiful face of the one I love, but even after my sight became clouded and obscured I could see the beauty that cannot be seen with the naked eye. That is why I can safely say with all my heart, that yes you may find someone who says they love you more than I can, and perhaps they can compliment you on your looks and what you are wearing, wher I need to be told what your outfit is for the day or evening, but my love is not based on those things. You could have the worst looking clothes on and no make-up or messy hair, and to me you are still beautiful. It is so sad that so much emphasis is place on appearance.

I truly mean what I say when I say that there is no greater love in the world than the love I have for you. My love is the forgiving kind, I not only forgive but I have learned to forget. My love is not a needy love, not that I don't need you, but the need is base on the actual love and desire that only one special person can fulfill. Do I want you, that goes with out saying. The want stems from the desire to love and be loved. No one but one can fill this emptyness in my heart. You are this only one...

Dedicated to Anonymous